When did life become so cold? Feeling the need to wear our emotions so close to our chest that it feels like we have this constant pressure weighing heavily on us all day everyday. Telling us we need to be perfect, we need to look immaculate 24 hours a day 7 days a week. We can’t show a moment of weakness without feeling like a rabbit that’s being pounced upon by a pack of wolves. What is it that is making us all feel the need to be robotic? To take whatever is thrown at us with a polished smile.
Why are we shocked when we see a moment of weakness? Life isn’t easy and sometimes we need to hear that. We need to accept that it isn’t always going to be smooth sailing. Because the brutal truth is, Its hard and its messy. You need to be prepared for its pure cruelty, its harshness. You need to know that it will knock you down. It will knock you down further than you have ever been and then it will keep on kicking. You will take hit after hit after hit until you are so beaten down you wholeheartedly believe you don’t have the strength it takes to get back up again, as if deep down you know there is no way you can survive.
But do you know what? That’s okay. It is okay to feel so low you have no idea what you are going to do or how to cope, like you physically cannot keep going. To genuinely believe that you are done, that you will never be able to pull yourself back up again. The truth is its okay to feel like this. Its okay because, you will get back up again, you will fight tooth and nail, even if you have to claw your way up using every ounce of strength you have, you will make it. It won’t be easy, it may take a while and things might change.
But I want you to know, it is okay to feel weak, to accept that you can’t be strong all the time, accepting that shows you are stronger than you could of ever imagined possible.
The truth is you don’t need to always have your shit together.
So scream, shout, cry whilst in the fetal position on the floor if you need to.
Accept that right now things aren’t good and neither is the way you feel, accept it get help if you need to, then build strength from it, take as much time as you need.
Then when you feel ready and I mean when you feel ready, not how much time is expected of you, or how long it took others, I am talking about what and when is right for you, that is when you drag your ass back up and you fight. You fight harder than you have ever fought before, you do it for everything and everyone you love, but most importantly, you fight for you.
Struggling to cope isn’t a crime. Crying isn’t a sin. Needing help isn’t some taboo. Sometimes just sometimes we all need a little support just to get through this life, but no matter how you feel just know, you will get through it.